I was six months into living in Bali and the tropical vibe that I was thoroughly enjoying was starting to wear thin. The emotions of restlessness, which would eventually turn into hopelessness were arising once again, under my rib cage. It was an experience that felt stuck on autopilot and often propelled me to cycle in and out of change -- desperately hoping and praying to eventually find solace and relief somewhere on Planet Earth.
If I couldn't find it in one of the most majestic locations in the world, then where the heck do I go from here? Should I just fully accept that I may be destined for doom forever?
I was speaking to a fellow expat about my dilemma and he suggested that I potentially consider meeting an energy healer who helped him clear his heart wall and release trapped emotions.
"Say what?" I asked with one eyebrow raised.
I didn't have the level of consciousness at the time to fully appreciate and understand the concepts of trapped emotions and heart walls. But he swore by the results and I was growing desperate. So I signed up.
I was introduced to an energy healer named Beatrice. Upon meeting her, I felt instantly safe with her. She invited me to sit down on a chair as she explained the process.
According to her, over the course of our lives, our subconscious mind will oftentimes create an energetic wall made up of trapped emotions to protect our hearts. It's an adaptive mechanism that we may resort to as a child and throughout adulthood as a way to cope with experiences that may feel overwhelming or painful. These trapped emotions get energetically lodged into our bodies and around our hearts until we're willing to feel and process them. Using an energetic healing method rooted in kinesiology called The Emotion Code, we can communicate with the subconscious mind to determine which emotions are primed for release at any given moment. She further explained that trapped emotions can form a web and the work includes detangling and releasing them one by one.
She began the process and all I had to do was to trust the process and give her full permission to access my subconscious mind so she could partner with it throughout the session. As I witnessed the process, I couldn't help but feel skeptical -- it felt a bit more "woo-woo" than I was used to. Yet, I remained open to it all.
I couldn't have predicted what sat on the other side of the experience. Over the next several days following the session, I felt weirdly lighter and happier as if the doom I had been dreading was lifted. I also received a phone call from my mother the next day as she shared with me the sudden realization she made the night prior -- and it was all related to a very specific maternal energy we had released the day prior.
A few months later, I was finally able to manifest the most incredible man that I'm proud to call my husband today -- something that I had been desiring for many years, to no avail. Prior to my husband, Christian, I continued to find myself in unhealthy relationship dynamics with emotionally unavailable men. Little did I know that it was a proverbial mirror of my own emotional immaturity, which was being used by my subconscious mind to protect my heart. Clearing the energetic wall has led me to develop a healthier relationship with my emotions. To this day, I still can't believe I was able to finally attract someone in my life who is emotionally stable and regulated.
Knowing how much this healing modality transformed my life, I felt compelled to learn the modality for myself so that I can continue to release emotions that are stuck in my body, as well as guide others to the same freedom I'm enjoying today. Today, I feel grateful to have the courage to fully process unpleasant emotions, something that, in the past felt too threatening for my nervous system.
If this feels like an answered prayer for you, send me a message so I can help you experience the fulfillment that awaits you on the other side of our time together.
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